Its_Gotta_Be_Rachel's Xanga

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 01:58:47 GMT

d-now this weekend.

but first i have to get through this week.

xanga is such a sad place now.

myspace is joining apple and starbucks in their quest for world domination.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Wed, 24 Jan 2007 17:05:07 GMT

it's been an interesting week.

lots of changes are being made. ones that i don't like, but i'm sure are leaving me better off. throughout this whole thing, i've been astounded by God's goodness. He's placed the most magnificent people in my life. my parents have been there for me, behind me, encouraging me, talking to me when no one else will, and telling me to stop moping about it. Some friends have shown how much they really don't care, while others have have shown they care a lot. some of these people have surprised me. they were the ones i least expected to be there for me, listen to me, and give me advice. the support my twin showed wasn't exactly surprising, but i was definitely grateful for her listening ears, and advice. my Creator is taking my brokeness, and making it into beauty once again. throughout the disappointment i've experienced this month, Jesus has been my constant. He held me close to Him. He listened to my tearful pleas, and has supplied me with an insane amount of energy that has helped me through the grueling weeks. and the one thing i've wanted to know for a year and a half has sort been ansrewed. it's a funny feeling.

"everything's falling, and i am included in that
oh, how i try to be just ok"

"Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky"

"rain, rain go away, come again another day. all the world is wating for the sun."

"You're beautiful
Every little piece love, don't you know
You're really gonna be someone, ask anyone
When you find everything you looked for
I hop your life leads you back to my door
Oh but if it don't, stay beautiful"

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 18:57:22 GMT

Finally, I can update.

so things aren't so good right now.

i wish i hadn't turned out the bad guy. i wish they'd stop saying i'm a liar. i didn't lie about anything. i wish i'd never said anyhting in the first place. i wish i'd put up a fake mask, pretending i was ok.

i wish they'd stop hurting me.

in other news, i'm in albuquerque.

there's real snow here. it's glorious.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Mon, 18 Dec 2006 17:52:29 GMT

another incredible weekend.

TERRACE.
red shirt.

michael buble is my new love.

he and john mayer share my heart.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 15:54:08 GMT

edit:::::::::::::::::::::

sometimes he makes me mad.

uuuugghhhhhh.

i need erica.NOW.

end edit:::::::::::::::

despite my illness, this past weekend was incredible.

quadelicious.

THE LION SLEEPS TONIGHT.

make sure it's not TIFFANY

i like

Fri, 08 Dec 2006 17:58:36 GMT

snow patrol.

and nyquil.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Fri, 01 Dec 2006 15:15:35 GMT

this entry got a make-over.

for me, everyone has 'their song.' it's a song that completely epitomizes what i feel for them and about them. or sometimes they just remind me of that person. it's crazy.

--some peoples songs--
person number 1: leave the pieces--the wreckers. all hail the heartbreaker--the spill canvas. fergalicious--fergie. (scarred for life.)
person number 2: mary's song--taylor swift. kingdom come--coldplay. collide--howie day. here in your arms--hellogoodbye. dear jamie--hellogoodbye.
person number 3: on the ride--aly and aj. i love life--melissa lefton.
~~person number 4: teardrops on my guitar--taylor swift. feelin' you--jesse mccartney. london bridge--fergie. (that one's an inside joke. don't take it literally.)~~
person number 5: hips don't lie--shakira. do it to it--cherish. moneymaker--ludacris (this is obviously erica. we dance to these.)
person number 6: how to save a life--the fray.

so go ahead, take a stab at who you are. some of you aren't on here. most of the people that are on here won't even read this.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Mon, 27 Nov 2006 20:58:21 GMT

edit 11/30////// i changed everything.

i love this song. nick lachey is amazing. not so much jessica simpson, but oh well.

it's cold. and i'm bored.

end edit/////

and I'm really starting to understand the phrase, "You want what you can't have."

"It just my luck to end up getting stuck to everything you are, so tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures, and over-analyze your words"

Friday, November 24, 2006

Fri, 24 Nov 2006 19:39:28 GMT

WHOOP!

"Good bye to Texas university
So long to the orange and the white
Good luck to dear old Texas Aggies
they are the ones who show the real old fight."

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Wed, 22 Nov 2006 03:21:20 GMT

so i'm in cisco.

i got my dress for victoria's party. it's so vintage. it's most likely the cutest thing ever.

on sunday night we had a piligrims and indians feast. i, of course, was a savage, along with my QUAD. i love feeling so alive, you don't know what to do with yourself. i felt that way sunday night. holding erica's hand while dancing to la'crea, and running so fast through the cold air every gasp stung my lungs, i decided i couldn't much happier than i was at that moment. we were supposed to be looking for a turkey in the yard, but we weren't.

HEART NOT CRUMBLED.

--FIRE JUMPER

oh, and i got a new picture.